ONE

It's been almost two months now since you turned one and I still can't believe I'm just getting to this post. But better late than never. I hope.

We started your birthday with a bang and filled your crib up with balloons the second you woke up. You loved it. You had the best time jumping in them and we had the best time watching you.

 

 

 

Dear Hudson,

I have to admit your birthday made me just a little emotional. You and I took a long drive to SLC for a fundraiser in the morning and I caught myself getting a little teary-eyed as I was remembering the day you were born. I didn't get to see you until 2 1/2 hours after you were born, and even though my mind was still really foggy from everything the doctor had to give me,  I remember that moment so clearly. I remember having so many different emotions pour over me all at the same time. I felt so beyond lucky to have my very own baby, straight from heaven, I was so in love with you and never wanted to put you down. But at the same time I was so scared and had so much anxiety about the fact that I was responsible for you. I was the one that you would be looking to for guidance for everything. That is a huge responsibility. There was no part of me that felt I was adequate for this job. There are so many days and so many moments that I still do feel inadequate but I am so grateful that I get to be a mom, and that Heavenly Father trusted me with you.

I have had so much fun watching you learn new things and seeing your crazy personality unfold, I cannot wait to see what the next year brings.

Happy birthday baby Hudson, I love you!

Love, Mom

 

Dear Hudson,

I can't believe that you're already one! I remember your first couple of weeks, while mom was getting better in the hospital, you and I went everywhere together and we got to bond so well from the beginning. I am sad that mom has to work now, but I'm happy that it gives me the chance to have so much one on one time with you. I see so many dads who don't get to spend a ton of time with their kids, and the kids only want to be with their moms because of it. I love that you get so excited when you see me and you smile and walk right to me, it makes all the hard and frustrating times so worth it. Son, you have been such a bright light in our lives. I hope you had the best birthday ever and that your next 99 birthdays are also the best birthdays ever. I love you so much bud and will always be here for you.

Love, Dad