ONE

It's been almost two months now since you turned one and I still can't believe I'm just getting to this post. But better late than never. I hope.

We started your birthday with a bang and filled your crib up with balloons the second you woke up. You loved it. You had the best time jumping in them and we had the best time watching you.

 

 

 

Dear Hudson,

I have to admit your birthday made me just a little emotional. You and I took a long drive to SLC for a fundraiser in the morning and I caught myself getting a little teary-eyed as I was remembering the day you were born. I didn't get to see you until 2 1/2 hours after you were born, and even though my mind was still really foggy from everything the doctor had to give me,  I remember that moment so clearly. I remember having so many different emotions pour over me all at the same time. I felt so beyond lucky to have my very own baby, straight from heaven, I was so in love with you and never wanted to put you down. But at the same time I was so scared and had so much anxiety about the fact that I was responsible for you. I was the one that you would be looking to for guidance for everything. That is a huge responsibility. There was no part of me that felt I was adequate for this job. There are so many days and so many moments that I still do feel inadequate but I am so grateful that I get to be a mom, and that Heavenly Father trusted me with you.

I have had so much fun watching you learn new things and seeing your crazy personality unfold, I cannot wait to see what the next year brings.

Happy birthday baby Hudson, I love you!

Love, Mom

 

Dear Hudson,

I can't believe that you're already one! I remember your first couple of weeks, while mom was getting better in the hospital, you and I went everywhere together and we got to bond so well from the beginning. I am sad that mom has to work now, but I'm happy that it gives me the chance to have so much one on one time with you. I see so many dads who don't get to spend a ton of time with their kids, and the kids only want to be with their moms because of it. I love that you get so excited when you see me and you smile and walk right to me, it makes all the hard and frustrating times so worth it. Son, you have been such a bright light in our lives. I hope you had the best birthday ever and that your next 99 birthdays are also the best birthdays ever. I love you so much bud and will always be here for you.

Love, Dad

 

 



Almost One

I can't believe it. Nearly a year old. It's just too much.

You have changed SO much in the last couple months. Weeks even. It's so sad to see my baby growing up, but so fun at the same time. Your personality is the best and you are constantly making Dad and I laugh. Really hard.

 

You learned how to scoot, crawl, and pull yourself up to stand, and walk along furniture. And it has kept you extremely busy. I seriously can't keep up with you. Our apartment is definately not baby proof. I swear I'm constantly picking up baskets of pens and handfulls of q-tips, and running to grab books from you before every page has been ripped out.

You love ice cream, bananas, and smoothies but you hate peas and oatmeal. You love swinging, playing outside and wrestling and really dislike getting dressed and taking naps.

You have 4 teeth, the prettiest blue eyes, and a blonde, extremely fluffy mullet. You have the happiest smile that makes your eyes squint, and you make the funniest faces. Even if I wasn't biased I would for sure think you're the cutest baby I've ever seen.

I've been awful at posting pictures and things we've done all summer, so once again I'll just overload this post with pictures. This summer you took swim lessons! You actually learned how to roll onto your back and float when you go under water. Watching you struggle to learn how was hands down the scariest and most heart-wrenching thing I have ever done ( I might change my mind on your first birthday), but you did it and Dad and I are so proud of you!
You can do hard things, we all can.

I'm no photographer, so thank you for being so good looking